Let the changes begin!

I cannot begin to tell you how excited that I am getting for our upcoming IVF.  In the hopeful mindset that this IS going to work; I have begun making some changes!

Here is the 1st change so far:

I am back to being a brunette....EEEkkk!!!

I am a planner by nature...my hair appointment was due, so I thought about if when I do get pregnant it is going to be a LONG time before I could actually get my hair highlighted again and that would not be cute ;) LOL! 

I know the jury is out as far as opinions on hair coloring while in the 1st trimester, but if we are going in debt this much (not complaining at all) I am going to dot all of my I's and cross all of my T's!!

So here is to brunette's...it's been a long time that I have been close to my natural color!

Next change coming to order is: no caffeine and no more vino :-(

P.S. I almost cried in the chair, my stylist had to turn my chair away from the mirror while he was blow drying...haha!

Insomnia....you are killing me!

Me and my new friend insomnia are not getting along.  It all started a couple of weeks ago before the IVF consultation...maybe it's excitement, anxiety, worry.  Who knows but it's killing me SLOWLY!!!  I am a person who loves to sleep, which may be an understatement because I absolutely ADORE my sleep which is a trait passed straight on from my mom and anyone that interrupts my precious sleep pays the price ;-)

I usually wake up anywhere from 1:30 am - 3:30 am to use the bathroom or for no reason at all, but once I'm up I'm UP.  I may consider wearing some depends to bed here soon...JK!!!  I look over at my husband who has no idea I'm even up and my dog who is completely in his cozy dream land (he sleeps in the bed...I know)!

At one point in my insomnia state I remember thinking of this book and telling myself the title as a I laid awake!

So far everything is going well...I started the Lupron on Friday and I had my blood drawn yesterday, which everything came back as they wanted to see.  My next ultrasound and more bloodwork will be next Thursday to see if I am ready to start stimming!!!  Can't wait to officially get this ball rolling and make lots of follicles :-)

Pity Party...Table for 1!

This blog post was written a while ago, but the news wasn't to be shared until certain people knew!!

I knew this day would be coming sooner than later...I had just hoped that it would come later after we finally got pregnant!

My best friend Nicole, the one who started this blog for me called me one morning to inform me that we were going to have dinner that night...seemed kind of weird considering we usually only do things on the weekends together, but I went with it!! I had called my husband and told him that it was strange...he suggested that they wanted to tell us they were expecting...I laughed it off and then thought about it...we were on the same exact cycle, so it could be possible. Of course curosity was killing this cat; I had to call her and put her on the spot...I bluntly asked her if she was pregnant and she said yes! I was so overcome with emotions: happy for them, jealous of them, upset at my body, angry, joyful, sorrow, pity for myself. I talked with her for a while about how she was doing with the news and than she asked if we still wanted to do dinner; I had told her no way!! Of course she thought I was kidding...but I wasn't and at that moment I told her that I needed a pity party for 1 that night and I started to bawl.

I called my husband on the way to my dentist appointment, crying like a baby who just had just been scolded. Who was I kidding attempting to go on with the rest of my day, especially at the dentist...I worked through it and walked into the office looking like a hot mess as I sit down the most adorable little 2 year old walks up to me holding out her arms...OMG who is trying to torture me!!! Not only did the torture end there...I get my upper jaw numbed to only be told that they couldn't do anything for me....REALLY!!!! So here I am; red eyes from crying, numb mouth (probably drolling on myself), and utterly sad.

So, after a few margaritas and one more crying fit I began to feel like a terrible friend. I then realized I needed to pull myself together and be HAPPY for her and her husband! So I did exactly what she would do when she finds out a friend is prego...I went and bought and adorable stuffed giraffe, a card (which I never do...LOL) and a bottle of bubbly to celebrate this amazing time in their lives. I showed up at their house to surprise them...all I wanted to do was give her a big hug and cry some happy tears with her...instead I show up to an empty house...they were out to dinner!!! I guess that is what I get for being selfish!!

We could not be happier for them!!  They are going to make awesome parents.  I am so excited to think that we could actually be pregnant together!

My new stash

The shooting up has officially begun...with Fertility Meds of course : )

I cannot believe the stress I encountered over the past few days...I felt like a crack head waiting for her drugs...it wasn't pretty and this is just the beginning!

My IVF nurse faxed over my meds list to Walgreens specialty pharmacy in Texas on Wednesday afternoon; I of course called to follow up with the pharmacy...thank goodness I did...4 frustrated calls later my meds were being "overnighted" via FedEx.

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HAHA...the joke must be on my with my luck...I rec'd a phone call while at work from Texas Wednesday afternoon (a number I didn't want to see calling thru).  The call went something like this:

Her:  Hi, Crystal...this is Jaime with Quality Control for Walgreens

Me: Major heart thumping followed by a Hello (I think ;)

Her: The plane your medication was scheduled to leave on had encountered mechanical issues

Me: OMG...I NEED THOSE MEDS to begin tomorrow AM (holding back major tears and a break down)!  I even told her the issues I had with the pharmacy they probably didn't even send them out

Her: She assured me they did leave the facility and gave me the tracking # to prove it

Me: Well there clearly isn't much I can do at this point since they decided to wait 12 hours later to inform me of this mishap.
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I immediately emailed my nurse and called her...she said it would be ok to take it later on Friday....Thank God! 

I told my nurse the meds shouldn't arrive too late because the package was upgraded to "Priority" for delivery no later than 10:30 am.

Oh no friends the fun didn't end there..............

Every hour yesterday, beginning with a morning wake up @ 3:30 am was filled with anguish.  I have never realized how many trucks pass my work on a daily basis; well I know now!  FINALLY at 12:30 and 2 calls to FedEx later (thank you hubby) my beautiful box of baby meds was in MY Hands!

I'm sure it was a sight to see me ripping through the box finding the Lupron I needed to inject right away.  My co-worker said it looked like a Dr's office and proceeded to watch me inject my 1st of many many shots! 

I hope this is the only major stress that I will endure this cycle because it was too much.  I even found a meditation station on Pandora!

Here's a peek at the new addition to my fridge and counter!

Destination: Baby

Holy smokes...where should I begin?!

Our appointment yesterday went well...it was a crazy whirlwind that I didn't expect to walk out of there 2 hours later and have the process happen so fast! I am going to make it a little easier to follow by bullet pointing!!

*Arrive at our consultation to discuss our options for IVF. I can't believe it's been a year since I have last been in to their office. So in order to get things going full throttle (since I am on CD 18) he needed to do an ultrasound, bloodwork, and get things set up with our IVF nurse (information, meds ordered and all of the fun talk about lots and lots of shots)!!!

*He was concerned about the last time I had an HSG which was 2 1/2 years ago and also was cautious of the endometriosis findings from my laparoscopy, which were minimal Stage 1-2, but wanted to be 100% sure that it wasn't back in the form of fibroids or polyps. He called his Fetal Diagnostics Dr. friend to see if they could squeeze me in for a 3-D Pelvic Ultrasound. Got in this morning! YAY!! The tech performed the ultrasound and the doctor came in to review her findings. There was a small area on my uterus that looked like it could be endo; definitely not polyps or fibroids. he was confident this should not get in the way of pregnancy...let's hope he's right :)

*I received the call from my IVF nurse this afternoon with my bloodwork results. My progesterone was 10.1 which was a green light to begin taking Lupron on CD 21! She also informed me that my thyroid came back a little higher than they like, mine was 3.1 and they want to see it at 2.5, so I will begin taking thyroid medicine to help regulate it.

*Once I start my period at the end of the month I will then begin stimming and in for monitoring pretty much every other day!!

*Currently waiting for the nurse to email my fertility calender for the next month and a half...talk about checking your email every 2 seconds!!

We are so excited and grateful that we are finally opening a new chapter in our infertile lives!

Let's get this party started!

Since my last post a couple of things have changed drastically for us! My husband has finally landed a job after 2 1/2 LONG years; he will now fly for a commuter airline!!! Which in turn has prompted us to kick things into high gear with regards to IVF...scary and exciting all at the same time!! The reason we have decided it's time to step up to IVF is because he will begin training on January 3rd, which will last for 5 weeks straight...that doesn't really leave a lot of time to "practice making a baby"!! LOL!! After his training period is over he will be flying a lot since he will be the lowest guy on the totem pole.  So here comes a new chapter in our infertile lives...let's get this party started!! 

Our consultation with the RE is next Tuesday the 15th which is our 4 year anniversary...ka-winky-dink?! ;-)

I'll keep you posted!